Uh oh. Time flies.
After struggling through the holiday season I got on track in training for the Way Too Cool 50k. I pulled it together. I rallied. I was very consistent with my training and, surprisingly, felt ready. But it was not to be. A relative passed away and the memorial landed on the day of the race. When I first saw the date I burst into tears. I had worked hard. The energy and focus is not easy to come by when attempting a new challenge. I was SO excited. My friend who had been on the waiting list got in, we reserved the hotel... we were pretty psyched. Selfishness aside it was clear that I had to be with family. So I did. And was glad I did.
At first I thought I would just parlay the training into another 50k. But a week later I went out for a training run that may have been hormonally influenced... but it sucked. And I decided not to run the Diablo 50k. This sent me into some sort of spiral for about 4 weeks. No running. Eating horribly. It was like a punishment. Luckily, I came out of it... and I realized that I need to move forward. I love trail running.
So I re-evaluated my 2013 goals. I decided to focus on fewer races. The Coastal Trail Runs Big Basin Marathon/50k is next. I am very curious to explore that landscape. It is beautiful. There is a 50k option but I've decided to stick with the marathon distance. Probably for the year. At first this felt disappointing, like quitting. But I realize that I really, really, want the WTC to be my first 50k. So I'll enter the lottery again... and cross my fingers. I will spend this year enjoying running, doing a couple of marathons (another attempt at the NorCalUltra Golden Hills Marthon... can I do it faster this year?!)...
I realize that the more I run long distance the more my body adapts. This means that if I focus the year on the marathon distance then I will build a better base for the year of the 50k. Because I have long term, crazy goals. I want to keep pushing the distance. I want to see how far I can go.
"You must do the thing you think you can not"... yup.